So...we've been so busy with the holidays and Luke's birthday that I have not even had three seconds to really think about the other BIG deal going on in our life right now.
I am in the middle of another IVF cycle.
In about a week or so, I go back up to MD for the two weeks of stims/monitoring/retrieval and transfer process. Two weeks later, I'll take a beta and see if it worked. And then, God willing, about 9 months later, another little Ennis will come into our family.
Yep. CRAZY, right?
I have not really focused on this AT ALL. With Matthew's and Luke's cycles—obsession. Obsession, obsession and more obsession.
With this one?
More like, "What? What cycle?!"
Which is actually kind of freeing and nice, in a way. Not stressing (we've already all agreed that another little one in our lives is truly icing on our already amazing family cake) and not believing how quickly it is all happening...which means that it will be over before I know it!
Sooo...if you read this and you pray...please pray for us. Pray for a smooth cycle. Much of it will be done without John. (As in, "Sooo...do you want to hear the story of how mommy got pregnant when daddy was on the boat?) I'm feeling SOOOO my age these days—achy back (that chunker of mine is heavy!), bunion feet (Don't laugh..okay, do...it's funny. And hereditary. Thanks, Mom.) and general fear of my pretty easy and smooth life about to turn into some major big changes.
But I keep reminding myself...God does not give us a spirit of fear.
So, please pray for us that I keep remembering that!
Also, my dear, dear friend Terri's mother died this morning. Terri is a former parent, and has been such a support since we got pregnant with and lost Matthew, and she religiously tends to Matthew's grave (as do so many other dear friends!) and sends me pictures. I know losing one's mother is devastating, so if you could keep her in your prayers, I know she'd appreciate it. She's always such a prayer warrior for me!