I really feel pretty ashamed of myself for feeling so "bleh" these last few days. There is nothing to be that way about AT ALL. It was early. I got the ultrasound report back—it was a beautiful little 1.14cm x .043cm x .075 gestational sac with a 4mm yolk. As much as I love Dr. P down here, his equipment is NOT the same as Shady Grove's so, it stands to reason that not much more could be seen as early as 5w6d. Like I already said, nothing was seen for either of the boys that early, and when it WAS seen, it was slow cardiac activity, so odds are it had just started.
We are already just so attached to this little one. Truly. So I just hate not knowing definitively that everything is fine.
Then again, do we ever?
Anyway...so I've been blah. But that is just not ok with me, especially in light of so many I know of who are hurting and suffering. So, one of the things that I know doesn't seem natural, but is SO true, is that when one is feeling blah, the best way to fix that is to serve or to give. So, I'm going to do a giveaway.
I've said it before. Luke LOVES the PraiseBaby videos. So do I. Heck, even John walks around the house humming!
So, I'm going to give one away on Friday. To enter, just tell me what you think the baby's heart rate is going to be. (Because I WILL see a heartbeat.) I'll help give some idea...typically at this point, the heartbeat is 90-110. Matthew at 6w1d was 102 and Luke at 6w2d was 88 (yeah, remember me freaking out about how that was a bit slow???!!!). I'll be 6w6d on Friday.
Whoever gets it, or closest, wins. In the event that there are multiple correct guesses, I'll go with the first one...maybe. Maybe I'll just give more!
In the meantime, friends...thank you for praying for us and sending us love and encouragement. We are so, so grateful. Our cups runneth over.