I have been feeling really, really blech all week. The words food aversion don't even come close to matching the way my stomach has felt. Just the term "toss your cookies" makes me want to toss my cookies.
Probably because I am pregnant.
With a beta of 806.
Matthew's was 180.
The next beta is Monday.
And all I have to say is that there truly is a joy in my heart that surpasses all earthly understanding. To be able to say that I am thrilled and unbelievably happy while I know that my sweet little Matthew's room is empty during what would have been his naptime just doesn't seem logical, appropriate or right.
And yet, for the little life or lives that I have been given the privilege of mothering and hopefully raising, I have nothing, nothing, nothing but joy.
That, friends, is truly, only and solely the miracle given by the Hand of God.
Soooo thrilled for you Lori! I wish I could just give you (and your little one(s)) a huge hug. You deserve your joy!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
Praises in my heart for this news, tears in my eyes that Matthew cannot be in your arms today to share in the moment. I will be praying every day that this pregnancy is as easy as can be and that you and John are at peace with the process.
ReplyDeleteKathy W
Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteJust saw your post on facebook a few minutes ago and my first thought was, "Look at what the Lord has done!!". I know you are praising him as well.
ReplyDeletePsalm 66:1-5 was what entered my mind right away:
1 Shout with joy to God, all the earth!
2 Sing the glory of his name;
make his praise glorious!
3 Say to God, "How awesome are your deeds!
So great is your power
that your enemies cringe before you.
4 All the earth bows down to you;
they sing praise to you,
they sing praise to your name."
5 Come and see what God has done,
how awesome his works in man's behalf!
Praise the Lord!!! Congratulations! I have been thinking of and praying for you today! :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulation Lori and John!! I'm not sure what beta means, but I sure hope that's a good sign :)
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Jes
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Lori, I cannot even begin to tell you how EXCITED I am for you!! I have been thinking of you all day today and hoping for this news! Love to you, my friend! xxx
ReplyDeleteAwesome news! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteShan in CO
I'm SO SO SO HAPPY for you and John!
ReplyDeleteBring on the cute pregnancy pictures! (Coz you're the cutest pregnant lady EVER!)
When's the due date? (because I'm super lazy...errr, I mean bad at math)
Congratulations!!
ReplyDeleteReally did I tell you how OVER the MOON I am for you guys!!! I am in Awe as I watch the Favour of God on you and John's life....
Matthew,
You are going to have a baby brother and sister how great is that...Well I guess you already knew that you were just waiting for the rest of us to find out:-)
I just wish I could give you guys a big hug as I just can't stop crying tears of Joy...Amaya just now asked me why I was crying and I told her that I am just so so happy.
I can't wait for Danielle to get home so I can make her day with this good news.
<3 <3 <3
Nia
XOXOXOXOXOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI just knew it. In my heart I just knew it. Yay! God is so so good and I am so so thankful for this (these) blessing(s)! I love you so much, Lori! I couldn't be happier! xxxxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteYahooooooo! Congrats Lori and John! That is quite a Beta! Praying for you and your little one(s).
ReplyDeletecongratulations! that's amazing! you really deserve to be a mom and youre going to make a great one!
ReplyDeleteGreat news!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm having a really blah boring day. Your JOY has brought me such a smile... HALLELUJAH ~ continued best wishes to you!!!! :)
ReplyDeleteLori
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for you and sending you bunches of hugs and prayers!!
SOOOOO excited for you!!!!! {skips around the house} :)
ReplyDeleteLori, I am SO happy for you!!! :) Will continue to pray for you. Keep us updated!!!
ReplyDeleteWow - that is quite the beta! I'm definitely going to go with twins on this one. Yay!!! See, all that pessimism was unwarranted!
ReplyDeleteWere you this sick this early with Matthew?
I am rejoicing with you, friend!!!
ReplyDeleteOver the moon for you! Thank you for sharing this wonderful news with us! xo
ReplyDeleteI have the biggest goose bumps you've ever seen!!! I'm so thrilled for you there are no words.
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Oh sweetheart I am so happy to hear this!!! I have tears for all you've been thru. This road certainly isn't easy, but just that little glimmer of hope in your voice makes me smile HUGE :) Love and giant hugs to you!!! I hope to see you!!!!!! Love love love you xxx Nan
ReplyDeleteCongrats! I am so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteThat is quite the beta!! :) My twin beta was 680 at 13dp3dt. I think Miney and Moe are there to stay!
ReplyDeleteCongrats!!!! I am so excited for you guys. I can't wait to find out if there is one or two in there. Thanks be to GOD!!!
ReplyDeleteYAY!!! ALL DAY I just KNEW I'd come home to find out you had some good news!! WOOO!!! God is so awesome :)
ReplyDeleteI am soooo excited for you how totally wonderfully exciting!
ReplyDeleteLori- I'm so excited!!! Been thinking of you alot lately and so glad to hear this news!!!!
ReplyDeletePraise God!! What an awesome beta!!!! Continually praying!
ReplyDeleteI'm with Franchesca on this one. (And you should have seen Natalie's smile when I told her -- it lit up her whole face!)
ReplyDeleteLori--
ReplyDeleteI stumbled across your blog several months ago, after you lost Matthew. I have been a silent reader for all that time, but I felt compelled to leave a message today to tell you I have been praying for you and your husband and am so happy for you! I have a (nearly) 15 month old that "they" said I would never have and just had an ectopic pregnancy so I know the joy and sadness, although not on yur level. Anyway, I am so happy for you! Congratulations!!
Becky
Your Beta was WHAT?!!! I think we may just have another TTM in the works!
ReplyDeleteI am absolutely thrilled for you! That is wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!!
Huge hugs...Heather (heathershope - HP)
You just put a great big smile on my face !! I can imagine how big yours is !! I am SOO happy for you !!!
ReplyDeleteAMAZING news, congrats!!!!
ReplyDeleteBE-YOND Amazing! I LOVE YOU FRIEND!
ReplyDeleteTears....just tears.....such happy tears!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI hope the big beta numbers continue to bring you big joy!
ReplyDeleteHow awesome!!! Congratulations, I am so happy for you!!! You so deserve such wonderful news!
ReplyDeletelove and prayers
elena
Congratulations Lori! XOXO
ReplyDeleteLORI! I am soooo happy for you! I have been thinking about you literally daily. I told my family about you and we have all been praying you would have another baby soon. Praise God!!!! :)
ReplyDeleteLori Congrats!!!
ReplyDeletePrise the Lord!!
So glad to hear this:) YES!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh happy day!! Big congrats, Lori.
ReplyDeleteWonderful news. Praise God indeed!
ReplyDeleteLori,
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking of you today and waiting to be able to check this. I am so incredibly happy for you. My first beta with my twins was 96, 2nd 227...my Dr. didn't think they were both there and then...there they were, two little heartbeats. So you go girl! Your numbers sound great. Miney & Moe, Go..Go..Go!
Thank you Lord.
Love,
Kelly.
Aww Congrats Lori!!! I am so happy for you. It is a bittersweet feeling to be pregnant again... Scary, sad, and amazing all wrapped into one. I am so glad that this cycle worked.
ReplyDeleteI can't remember how I came across your blog but I've been quietly reading and grieving for you. I wasn't sure the right words (and I know there aren't any) so I just prayed for you and thought about your baby boy. Now, I just want to comment and say how happy I am for you for this positive test and hope that you can experience peace, comfort, strength (and the closeness of Matthew's memory) during these next months. Congratulations. Matthew is a big brother!
ReplyDeleteWonderful news Lori! I am so excited for you. I am so glad our paths have crossed so that I can see what God has in store for your precious family.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations x 1000! *Such* joy - I scared my daughter a little at lunch when I read your post and the waterworks immediately started. So what you, John, family, and friends are feeling must be indescribable.
ReplyDeleteI hope this greatest-of-blessings and the happy anticipation of Monday's appointment make the memorial service slightly easier to bear. And meant in the nicest way possible, I kind of hope you continue to feel lousy the next 8-10 weeks. Nausea = reassurance! :)
Congrats from a former SoMDer!!!
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog on and off the last few months but I certainly picked the right night to check up on you!
Pretty soon you'll be reading blogs during 1am feedings just like me! :)
Praying for good health and growth!
Who'd have thought you'd ever be thrilled to be so sick - ha! Puke on!!!
Look at those beautiful red lines!!!! I am so happy for you and I promise not to mention, you know, round food items of the sweet variety anywhere near you.
ReplyDeleteHUUUUUUUUGS!
May the joy continue...
ReplyDeleteI learned of your story through a friend of mine... So, you don't know me, but I just had to post! Your story makes my heart ache and fly all at the same time. Most of all, your story... Matthew's story... The stories to come of Miney & Moe- is/are nothing less than inspirational and full of hope! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing... You (and Matthew) have touched so many- and in so many ways... including me! Thanks again and CONGRATULATIONS!
ReplyDeleteCONGRATS!!!!! YIPEEE!!!!
ReplyDeleteAww, shucks! Thanks for your comment on my blog. :) So very sweet of you.
ReplyDeleteGod is good :) My heart is filled with JOY and I'm thanking "him" in this very moment.
ReplyDeleteLook how loved you are girl friend...we are all cheering you on!
Be good to you and that beta number is fantastic!!!!
Mwah!
Andrea
Congratulations!!!! You should absolutely, 100% be able to find joy in this!! Lots of love, hugs & prayers!
ReplyDeleteCONGRATULATIONS! ( I have a big koolaid grin on my face right now! LOL) So happy for you. Sending you hugs!
ReplyDeleteTwo lines = two babies :-)
ReplyDeleteOH MY GOODNESS! I just got back and this is the best news ever. I can't sop smiling. A big (maybe double big) congrats to you.
ReplyDeleteSo happy to hear this! Yay! yay! yay!!! :) What an awesome beta!
ReplyDeleteI'm late in reading, so Congrats! PTL! So happy for you!
ReplyDeleteLori...Congratulations!! I'm so incredibly happy for you and John. Such wonderful news!!
ReplyDeleteOn Janessa's 1st Heavenly Birthday you found out about your sweet Luke. xoxo
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