Friday, May 7, 2010

Mother's Day Memorial

Well, I think that the timing of needing to create a memorial for Matthew for my Pregnancy Loss Study (AMAZING, BY THE WAY!) and Mother's Day is sort of ironic.

Here's the memorial I made. I haven't done very much to honor Matthew, as I really just miss him and ache for him all the time. BUT, I felt that I could show how much he was loved; show how much he was wanted; show how very grateful for his life I am.

So, here it is. It came from snippets of the pregnancy journal I kept with him. I haven't looked at that journal since November 27. It's the same song that we used for the slideshow John put together for the funeral.

This has, as I said, been a hard week.




24 comments:

  1. Lori, that is simply beautiful. Right from your heart. Just beautiful.

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing Matthew with us. He is beautiful and so is your tribute. Hugs and prayers!!!

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  3. i cried through the whole video :(

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  4. So beautiful, Lori. What a beautiful tribute to an amazing baby boy. My heart breaks for you, and with you, as I know the pain you feel. We are thinking of you guys and remembering you in prayer. I think of Matthew so very often...and I like to think that he and Ayden are little buddies. Happy Mother's Day to my beautiful friend.

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  5. What a beautiful video Lori, you did an amazing job. I can't stop the tears from flowing. I am so very sorry that this happened to you and I wish I could move heaven and earth to change it all. Matthew will always be loved and remembered in my heart. There are so many things you have taught me through your posts, so many things you will never know.

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  6. Thank you for letting us share in the blessing of Matthew. You and John are beautiful parents of the most precious child.

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  7. Lori, Thank you for sharing Matthew! That was so precious. How sweet Heaven is!

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  8. Beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. It's 1:20am, and I can't sleep tonight after seeing this. Your love for Matthew is breathtaking. Clearly he was given more of it in his 40 weeks, 4 days, and 8 hours than some people receive in a lifetime. And I'm positive he felt that love the entire time - how could he not? What a tribute to the journey the three of you took together on this earth.

    And you *have* done plenty to honor Matthew. Maybe not in the obvious or immediate way you'd like or feel he deserves, but by your blog, your support of others in the same situation, your continued faith, the donations in his name that have made a difference in ways you'll never know, and the effect you've had on others who, inspired, will in turn impact many more. Matthew's legacy will go on and on. Knowing this won't fix the emptiness your arms feel, but in time I pray it'll help the ache in your heart a little.

    Thank you for sharing your son with us again. I'm holding all the mamas and their babies close to my heart this weekend.

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  9. Oh Lori...

    I have said that a mother cannot truly know how much she will love her child until she meets him. Yes, you love your child during pregnancy but it's different when they are actually born.

    Except you. You loved him in that overwhelming way all along. And though in many ways that is such a gift and blessing, it makes my heart hurt all the more for you.

    Your love for Matthew fills this space. It is beautiful.

    Prayers always for his little siblings as they grow...

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  10. What a beautiful memorial! You are an amazing Mommy and I pray for your comfort during this Mother's Day weekend.

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  11. It was a beautiful, touching tribute to such a special boy. Keeping you in my prayers.

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  12. What a beautiful way to honor your son. And your special relationship with your son. The love the two of you share came through so clearly in your tribute, Lori. Thank you for allowing us in.
    I can see how incredibly hard that was to create for you. Big hugs. Love you.

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  13. Maryanne JouvenalMay 8, 2010 at 10:24 AM

    Absolutely beautiful tribute to your sweet Matthew. I think of you, John and Matthew often. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

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  14. Lori:

    That is a beautiful tribute to a beautiful boy who brought such joy to so many people. I will never forget hearing of Matthew's passing and knowing that all of us who follow your blog love him too, even if we do not know you personally. May you find peace on Mother's Day.

    Kathy W

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  15. Thank you for sharing this. it's the most beautiful, amazing, heartfelt thing I think I've ever seen. (((hugs)) to you tomorrow. I am so sorry for all this for you. He is absolutely beautiful.

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  16. Lori,

    Thank you for sharing this. The tears are flowing. He is so beautiful.

    Bridget

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  17. ((((LORI))))
    Absolutely precious. My eyes are clouded with the tears of sadness and love for you all.

    Heather (heathershope - HP)

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  18. Oh Lori... I am sitting here just balling my eyes out.

    ((((((((((LORI)))))))))))

    I'm so, so sorry, my love.

    Sarah xoxo

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  19. Lori - you are a beautiful woman and your tribute to your son just incredible - I was fighting back tears throughout -- You are an incredible mom... inspirational to us all..
    Amy

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  20. Matthew is so, so loved. Your tribute touched me so much the other night, though I have to admit, I didn't have the strength to watch it again today when you posted it. A beautiful baby and a beautiful mama. Thinking about you and ALL your babies often...

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  21. Lori,

    Thinking of you this day, wishing it were going to be different for you but also filled with hope that God's promise will one day be fulfilled and you WILL be a mommy again. Pryaing, holding you my heart, and knowing God has something very special in store for your life...in fact...hmmm...I think He already has shown that through Matthew. He entrusted you with a child who was very special and needed someone to love him ever-so-well for the short amount of time he was here. He was treasured, as this video shows.

    Much love and long distance hugs from a mom who knows that it is to wait.

    Cindy

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  22. Thank you for your prayers,may the Lord bless you.

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  23. Such a beautiful tribute. I was in tears watching it. Thank you for sharing.

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