This morning, we saw one sweet little fluttering of a precious little heart and I was just so, so thankful. Dr. K said everything looked lovely and we'll go back in two weeks for another ultrasound and to graduate!
This baby looks so different than Matthew did, even at this early stage. Matthew looked like little jelly bean. Little Miney looks like a diamond ring!! In fact, when Dr. K was showing us what was what, that's what he said, and the heart beat was where the diamond was. It was precious.
And miraculous.
And scary.
It's been a wonderful but hard day. I'm THANKFUL that I have so many people praying for us. I am SO thankful that we have doctors and nurses who reassure us. As happy and joyful and hopeful as we are...this is hard.
I asked John to give me one good reason to believe this baby would be born and would live and we'd get to bring her home and raise her.
He said it happens all the time, every day.
Babies die all the time, every day too.
One million and four babies can be born and only one dies....and if you are one of the one million and four, that's FABULOUS.
When you're the one million and fifth...the others don't come close to reassuring you.
So, if you pray, and you pray for me, please pray for my peace. I am wracked with worry and anxiety, and trust me, I know that's not good for me or the baby. I purposely and deliberately make choices and try to live as if this little one will also live and come home with us.
But in my heart, I know that it may not happen. So please, pray for me and my anxiety and pray for my little diamond ring--that she or he grows healthy and strong and lets her or his mommy hold, cuddle and kiss her (or him)!
Without further ado, here's Miney...
Cute, huh?
Such a beautiful blessing. And I am most certainly praying, praying, praying for your peace. I will be following you all the way through this pregnancy until you have that beautiful baby in your arms. God Bless.
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ReplyDeleteJust love it Lori!! I'll be holding you in my heart that you can go through this pregnancy with some peace and less anxiety and I'll be praying that your wee little one grows healthy within you and you are able to hold and love on him or her when that day arrives that God brings forth the miracle of birth.
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What wonderful, wonderful news! I am praying for you...for peace.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful diamond Miney is! :)
OHHHH Miney!!! Welcome to the world!! Matthew will bring this baby right into your arms...I will PRAYYY so hard, i may become a Nun at the end...YOU deserve this happy ending...May God grant you this peace you need to get through this pregnancy and bring you a healthy loving screaming crying baby..!!! What a blessing to see that heart beat!!!
ReplyDeleteI've never stopped praying for your peace, but I'll ramp it up for you -- I'm happy to invest my prayers in your Diamond Miney! Love you.
ReplyDeleteOh Lori, I am sobbing. I was sitting here thinking about Madysens upcoming birthday (sat) and how so many years ago on this night we were awaiting her arrival. She came in with struggles and was flown away to childrens where their NICU saved her precious little life, I am now filled with anxiety and worry that soon she wont be my little girl and that kids at this age are so mean, and praying I have given her all I have to prepare her for the world and the difficult years of self discovery she has ahead. Its such a different anxiety than yours but its a mothers anxiety. Prior to Madysens birth as you know we too went thru the loss of a child and I shared that anxiety all thru my pregnancy with her right up til when she delivered, I thought, here we go again. Do you know I have very little memory now of My pregnancy with Mady, NOT ONE photo of me pregnant with her, the only hospital pic I have is one of her as they intibated her and had just announced CODE BLUE L&D thru the hospital. She fought, Miney will too. Those little monkeys are tough. I pray god will give you some peace and comfort during this pregnancy so you do not like I have any regret that you may have missed out on all the specialness this time is full of. I know Miss Miney will be with us curley hair and all and maybe in a few years Miss Miney and Miss Mady can meet and compare notes on their crazy mommas :) I am SOO happy for you. Treasure Each moment, (I have no doubt you will). And I cant wait to see your belly :) Much Love!
ReplyDeleteNot just cute - BEAUTIFUL! Miney TOTALLY looks like a little diamond ring. I do pray for peace for you, Lori. Spend all your energy on growing that baby, and maybe you won't have any left to worry. :)
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ReplyDeleteI love her already! One of mine looked like that at 6w5d, the other looked like a blob...so, maybe it is one of each! At any rate, friend I pray for peace for you ALL THE TIME! Rest assured, you are being prayed for by so many. So happy for you and John. What a wonderful second child she will be.
ReplyDeleteDaily prayers for you and Miney. Hugs from AZ. Grow baby Grow!
ReplyDeletePeace I leave with you, My peace I give to you;not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. John 14:27
ReplyDeleteClaim this promise and take it as command from our Lord. Of course you are fearful but He is the God of that which is fearfully and wonderfully made inside you!
You will keep Lori in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You. Because she trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
Beautiful little sparkley diamond indeed :) I will be praying specifically for your peace, Lori. This newest little one is another one of God's miracles!
ReplyDeleteTears! Just tears! Love love love to ALL of your family, J
ReplyDeleteDiamonds are a girls best friend! Praying for you to find peace and rest. xoxo
ReplyDeleteThere is NO DOUBT that if "she's" diamond ring shaped, she's a girl -- right?? :-) Oh Lori, this baby is such another beautiful miracle of God's and another blessing in your life. The verse Kim quoted to you came to my mind to. Peace can only come from one source, and I pray with everything I have that He will give you the peace you need to get through each day.
ReplyDeleteAnd DARN, I just KNEW it would be twins!
Word verification: ourra. I am praying for peace for you for every "ourra" of the day!
That is so precious. I am praying and will continue to pray for you! I pray that God will give you peace and comfort and I pray that you will be able to experience the Joy of this pregnancy that you should!
ReplyDeleteHugs Lori, sending you lots of hugs. Praying for you;)
ReplyDeleteI've been waiting all day for this post, and I think I've checked every hour!! :) CONGRATULATIONS DEAR FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!! And OH MY GOSH...does she ever look like a diamond!! :) That's adorable!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWe will all be praying for you peace. Those of us who have gone through the tragedy of having a child die and then go on to another pregnancy know all too well the fears that infiltrate the mind. How the enemy works double time to create fear and anxiety and doubt...and distrust in God. That's the enemy's hope. But we will all stand firm in prayer for your peace so that you will enjoy each and ever second, minute, hour, day, week, month...until your baby is home in your arms!
Hugs to you my dear friend...and give little Miney a pat for me! :)
Heather (heathershope - HP)
Another photo of Baby Ennis! Congrats (again) to you, John, and big brother Matthew. I'm thankful that modern medicine gives a glimpse into something so miraculous - and reassuring. A diamond ring...perhaps your daughter is already letting you know she's going to have expensive taste?
ReplyDeleteAmong other things, I always ask for peace of mind and spirit for you and John, no matter what comes your way. Per your request, I'll continue with just that, confident that Miney is one of the one million and four.
Word verification: "ovenesti." Something to do with your little bun in the "oven," "nestled" safe and warm with Mama :)
I love that he/she looks like a diamond ring! How precious! What a gem! All so appropriate! Praying for peace for you, your husband and your little GEM.
ReplyDeleteyay congratulations lori! miney really does look like a diamond ring its amazing! and beautiful, as for the rest of the emotions, i'm beginning to be with you on that, its alot harder being pregnant after loss than i thought, sending so much love, anne xxx
ReplyDeletefantastic news... just beautiful... i am tearing up in happiness for you... so looking forward to meeting matthew's sibling early next year...
ReplyDeleteB E A U T I F U L!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteSHE's beautiful! She MUST be she, looking like a diamond ring and all. Congrats Lori and John!
ReplyDeleteWow, totally looks like a diamond ring :) Such a beautiful picture!
ReplyDeleteLori... I Pray for you continuously.... I will pray for your peace as i can only imagine how hard it must be. We will all be here with you, in spirit , willing you on, hoping, praying until your beautiful Miney is in your arms safe and well.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of love your way.
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Oh Lori, I don't know how it would be easy to do, but I do hope that somehow God's peace fills your soul so that you don't lose a single moment of this pregnancy to anxiety. You deserve the freedom from fear to sit back, plaster a huge grin on your face and love every minute of this. I am sure Matthew is dacing a happy little jig!
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ReplyDeleteSo very happy for you!!! I am so thankful for Matthew's precious brother or sister, and I am praying for you to have an unexplainable peace! I totally understand how hard this has to be for you! Many hugs, and congrats:)!!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Lori. So, so very happy for you, John & Matthew!!
ReplyDeleteWhat an awesome pic!!! Love it! I will certainly pray for peace for you. I remember the anxiety...knowing you've already been 'the one' & hoping it will not happen again. It's hard & it's scary, but God can give you that peace, I have experienced it first hand (twice!!).
ReplyDeleteCan wait to watch Miney grow!!
So beautiful!! And every time I take my own worries and anxieties to God, I pray for you and your little one too. I want this so bad for me, you, Katy, and Amy (not sure if you read her blog), who are all due in January. It's so hard to have faith. Know I'm always here for a chat if you need it, and I can pretty much guarantee I will understand exactly what you are feeling, no matter what those feelings are!
ReplyDeleteLori,
ReplyDeleteAs I look at your little "diamond" I am reminded of what another BLM said on her blog:
She said "the road is long and difficult, but you have to keep diving for diamonds"
I will never forget her quote...and I am so happy you have your "diamond".
Never fret, we will be right here at your side to usher you through the emotions that come with this journey. You can count on me to be praying daily for you daily.
Sending you love and prayers,
Andrea
What a perfect picture! Embrace each day! I know it is so much easier said than done, and I will continue to remind you, but, "Worry does not add to your peace fro tomorrow, but it does drain your strength from today!" I am praying for you RIGHT now!
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Thank you so much for this beautiful, amazing gift that Lori has been given! Heartbeats in bellies are nothing short of miracles here on Earth! Please wrap Lori in your arms and let her feel your serurity and peace. Remind her, every moment if need be, that You are not only right by her side, but also in control. Please remind her to give that precious baby to you every single day! You are an amazing, powerful, good God and we are honored to worship you! Thank you for everything you have in store for Lori's precious baby and her growing family!
Amen!
That is one mighty fine "diamond ring" you have there Lori! Just fabulous!!!!!
ReplyDelete:) you are so blessed. I will continue to pray that God will calm your nerves, and your heart. And that you would have a happy/healthy pregnancy.
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Lori !
ReplyDeleteIm so happy for you !
I will keep praying for you and Miney .Try to believe in a happy end even if its easier said than done .
Sending you love
Lori, what a wonderful picture, and yes, I see the diamond. :) What a blessing, and I continue to think of you and John and that this blessing will come home with you. Love and hugs!! XOXO
ReplyDeleteSweetie it’s always scary every time I had a child I felt the same way. This last experience has taught me that all things happen for a reason and that you just have to enjoy the ride. I never thought that my son would be born 2 months early, but he is growing and healthy and I am blessed. It’s never a guarantee but it’s worth the risk every time. I pray for you as you take this journey and wish you the very best.
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Oh I'm a praying Lori! I've been praying non-stop. I will pray that God grants you peace to enjoy this pregnancy. It has to be the most difficult thing though, to not have anxiety. After what you have gone through I would think you are totally normal to have those what if's going in the back of your head. I'm here with you Lori, whatever you need please don't hesitate to ask....specific prayers, whatever.
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Kelli
Congratulations, Miney is beautiful! Thank you for sharing the u/s pic and your journey. Your fears are very understandable and very validated. Your hopes are too :). If you would like I can add you little diamond to Lilly's prayer list page that I started. I will be praying for you either way.
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Quick ad on, I meant "either way" in regards to whether or not you wanted to be added to the prayer is powerful page on Lilly's blog.
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elena
Oh so happy to read these words!!! :)
ReplyDeleteBaby does look like a diamond ring. wow I've never seen that before! SOOO cute! Praying for you, John, and Baby daily! :)
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