Monday, January 11, 2010
Walking With You is an outreach of Sufficient Grace Ministries. We are a group of mothers who have lost a baby or child, who gather together each month to share our stories, to encourage, and pray for one another as we walk this path together. Our hope is that you will be comforted when you join us here...and maybe that we can offer some grace for the journey as we look to the Lord for comfort and strength.
Today, came across the blog above...my heart just breaks at the many, many, MANY devastated mommies and daddies across this world missing their precious babies. I'm literally overwhelmed at how many blogs for these babies exist. It's just horrible...and really beautiful at the same time. This one, from the Sufficient Grace Ministries, had a really nice post today. A hard post--one that acknowledged that most days, getting out of bed and brushing one's teeth seems to be a major accomplishment when deep in the midst of grieving one's baby. (AMEN!) It challenged readers to give God praise, even in the middle of the this heartache.
My promise was to do just that...I was so grateful to God for Matthew, I couldn't EVER imagine a time I would be able to do nothing but praise Him for the miracle He gave me in Matthew. As I've said before, I never in a million years dreamed I'd be called to prove that.
Yet so many dear friends make it so easy for me! John and I have been wrapped in love and prayers from the second Matthew (Red Fish, I'm convinced!) WAS! His death has brought more people and love and prayers to us than I can believe. We are truly blessed with so much love and God's work in action. THAT is worth praising!
I had a doctor appointment today for some other complications--nothing major, hopefully, and more just the fun that comes with having an emergency c-section. BUT...the skill and expertise shown by the doctors and nurses and staff who worked on me from the day we went to the hospital to the day we left is truly worth praising. Because of them, I'm alive! I've healed pretty well and I was treated with such heartfelt compassion, I'm still in awe of it. THAT is worth praising!
John and I have been able to grieve together. We do our own separate thing, but we come together as needed and are forever bonded and deep in our love for each other and our little boy. THAT is worth praising.
We are hopeful for a sibling for Matthew. I doubt the road is going to be easy, but it is still worth taking. THAT is worth praising!
I received two different things that touched my heart today from two dear friends. The first, familiar Bible verses:
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls"
The neat thing about these verses? They are Matthew 11:28 and 29....My Matthew was born on 11/28 and died on 11/29. How very, very appropriate.
The next came with the attached message: "Jesus told me to send this to you."
Really, how great is our God? I am hurting and broken...yet He still sends me in so many different ways His compassion and His love.