Saturday, August 16, 2008

Notes to self:

1) DO NOT PREDICT TIMEFRAMES

2) DO NOT PLAN ON SENDING SOMETHING ON A CERTAIN DATE

3) SPEND THE 4 HOURS TO DRIVE YOURSELF OVER TO VIRGINIA AND GET YOUR CERTIFICATES AUTHENTICATED

4) STOP TYPING IN CAPS--PEOPLE MIGHT GET THE WRONG IDEA THAT YOU ARE SOME ANGRY, OUTRAGEOUS RAVER

5) Stop pretending you are not an angry, outrageous raver


Seriously...I am not angry, more emphatic. Every time I seem to set a time frame, it DOES NOT HAPPEN. Sooooo...if I make no more time frames, I will not be disappointed! I checked today--Virginia got my certificates on Monday. The Fed EX return package still must sit in Virginia, as it is not on the track site yet. In essence, when I called them two Thursdays ago and they told me that they were authenticating things that were received 2-3 days prior, I figured that since I had to have a few things done this last week here in Maryland, nothing would be ready until Wednesday/Thursday anyway, and by then, I should have the marriage certs. The sweet little girl in the authentication office said that sounded about right, and if she were me, she'd just send them overnight. Thanks for the tip. If authentication in Virginia is anything like it is in Maryland, it would have taken me four hours and 30 seconds to do--with four hours of that being drive time! I find it hard to believe that my beloved home state could be slower than Maryland, but then again...though Maryland is not necessarily a pro-adoptive state, it sure does get paperwork and fingerprints processed FAST! (Remember, I give credit where credit is due)

I am now not predicting, just hoping and praying that they will head out on Monday and I will get them on Tuesday and by Wednesday (which also happens to be the first day students come back) my dossier will be on its way to sunny CA...ah, the disappointments of a control freak! Don't think I don't realize that it is MY fault I feel disappointment--if I just waited for things to happen as they happen, I wouldn't be disappointed when they didn't happen when I want them to happen.

I will wait. Patiently. In the mean time, I have found www.blurb.com and can't wait to turn the blog into a book for the end of the year (thanks, Maria!) I have also decided to start something--whether it is another blog or not, I am not sure, but in any event and in whatever media, I will be writing letters to Emma every day. Starting tomorrow, as John is upstairs throwing shoes at the floor (his subtle way of telling me it is time to go to sleep!) I think of all the things I wish I knew about my mom--things you just don't even realize you want to know until she's gone and you can't ask--and want to make sure Emma knows them all. I would also like to let her know how very dearly she is loved, thought of and missed--all before she is probably even conceived. For the most part, though, I figured if I did daily letters to her, it would help ease the wait time--because it might be like I'm not waiting for her since I am actually talking to her--in a manner of speaking. Or typing. Whatever...

6) Be thankful I have brilliant ideas to keep me busy, ha ha

7) Be thankful God created me to be so darned humble

8) Be thankful God likes a sense of humor (for real--how else can I justify the rational behind the gas pump drive off? He obviously needed a good laugh that day!)

9) Be thankful that at the end of all this...your sweet little baby girl will be home, with her mommy, daddy and puppies

10) Be okay with ending your notes to self at number nine, and don't force number 10 just so you have a nice, well-rounded number with which to end. It is just superfluous.

4 comments:

  1. Okay well besides the obvious that you are on the PERFECT timeframe to match up with your YOUR perfect daughter something else is coming to mind that I want to mention.

    Since you are seemingly a good month behind us in getting your dossier in I'm thinking our travels are going to be PERFECTLY staggered. By that I mean that you hopefully will be able to get some pics of our daughter when you go on trip #1 and then when we go on trip #2 we'll be able to do the same for you and get pics of your daughter because at that point you might be in between trip 1 and 2.

    I know you are very frustrated! I'm sorry. Just hang in there. It's all gonna be okay.
    {{{hugs}}}

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  2. ok... you are so cracking me up... and btw I LOVE the ramblings!!!! can't beat those... straight from the heart thoughts....
    and the idea of writing letters to your sweet baby is way cool... I wrote letters (2 each) to both girls while preg. with them... and just this past summer I shared Bailey's with her... we both cried tears and it was an amazingly awesome moment that I was so thankful for!!! She was blown away by the letters and amazed... it was a memory I know she or I will NEVER forget... do it girl... not so sure about everyday.. LOL... but, write to here... that's awesome.. you'll NEVER regret it...
    hang in there.... God's timing is ALWAYS perfect... one thing lately that has totally gotten me through all our delays with the consulate, etc.... is that God reminded me that My baby/ babies are in his hand.... and that's a better place to be than even here with us.... cause he will take perfect care of them... even better than I can.... so rest tonight in the perfect peace that Your babydoll princess is resting in Jesus's hand tonight and everyday until you get to her....
    Have a blessed day... hang in there...
    Lanetta

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  3. I'm just nearly certain that you and I must be twins separated at birth -- what a riot this post was!!! Doesn't waiting stink? Wouldn't it be nice to be good at it? DON'T YOU LOVE CAPS?

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  4. Just wanted you to know that I am keeping up with your blog. I have been meaning to call you and tell you the Grace anne story. Thanks for the intel tip! Talk to you soon.

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